There are seriously no words to describe how I'm feeling right now...
My dad knew for a MONTH that he was going to get rid of two of my horses, and he told me the week of. I'm in Yellowknife, and I'm not back down (to visit) until March 14th. I didn't even get to say goodbye.
I wasn't overly close with Mexxi, so that only stings.
But Hanna.... That mare has a part of my soul. She was such a love to work with, and such a joy to ride. I know she'll be taken care of and loved where she is now, but still. My dad didn't even ASK or anything. Hanna was my mare to take care of and ride, and she was bonded with my horse. Now she's been moved back to the coast, and I'm so scared she's going to colic.
Oh, oh! I relapsed the other day too. I keep freaking trying to recover, but it ends in failure every time.
On the bright side, I got new strings for my guitar, I've read some good books, and (like I said) I know Hanna will be very well taken care of.
I don't know, it just really sucks.